So 2017 ended on a high, with the news that we would become a family of four the following year. I was pregnant with a little baby boy.
However, as joyful as it is, and planned I may add, the eventual arrival of a new being caused a bit of uncertainty. For those that know me, I’m a pretty organised/scheduled/just got my life back person, so this news just kinda threw me a little and put my mind into a spin. Which ultimately had a knock on effect on my blog. Pregnant and blogging?
Already a mummy to a near five-year-old boy, I had decided before he was born that I wouldn’t be turning into a ‘mummy/parent blogger’. I decided this space, my blog/site, was mine. My haven. My child-free release to be Caroline, not just a mummy.
More recently, especially after Louise Redknapp spoke out about how she became/felt ‘lost’ in a world of mummy and housewife life – I felt that I made the right decision in making sure I kept something for myself. Keeping my own identity. (Though I’m sure that’s a whole different post and debate.)
However, the idea of becoming a mummy again, living those baby years, left me a little anxious as to whether I could continue to blog easily as myself. Being home every day, running a house, having a new baby to tend to, pick ups and drop offs of my then eldest boy to school full time, then the idea of school holidays. It all sounded like quite the job. What would I write about? Would I have or be doing anything that would warrant writing about? That people would actually want to read?
I thought so much about it that I got myself into a bit of poor state where I couldn’t even write for the now, never mind thinking about when the baby had arrived. I’d set myself on that downward spiral of negativity. Comparison to others. Blah Blah Blah.
The Time Is Now.
Then the realisation came: I kept returning to my blog dashboard if only to stare at my drafts folder and think about what I could be writing about. I also began reading other blogs, something I hadn’t done in some time. Ultimately, I WANTED to blog. This space had been my sanctuary through my first pregnancy. Why would now be any different? Plus the idea that I was actually following in my late mother’s footsteps, but in a very more up to date fashion has made me love it even more.
Reaching out to, surrounding yourself with and reading about inspiring, strong, independent people can truly make all the difference to your mind frame. If not anything else, then the ‘if they can do it, so can I’ attitude is definitely the one. In honour of some of the changes I made and the direction I want my 2018 to go in, I wrote a piece about some ladies that I truly admire and believe have and will be making a difference to me and the year ahead – Have a read here.
In conclusion, I cannot really say what’s in store for me and this space over the next year. How often you’ll see content from me and/or what it will be, but know this: I will still be here and I will only be producing the very best content I possibly can. That will be my 2018.
I hope you stick around.